Embarassed?

We were recently a little pool and were the only family in there.

As it happens I was glad of this lack of population, as I had forgotten to bring along my swim hat and as such had nothing to cover my head in the water.

Had there have been other families or people in the pool, I would have just sat on the side and not gone in, however as it was, I felt I could "go naked" and be bald in the water with my kiddies.

So without too much thinking, I just jumped in and played around with the kiddies.

In general, I never bare my naked head, you see I prefer to wear a hat and keep it covered. It feels right and somehow comfy. So jumping into the water with my bald head exposed, was a little surprising and unusual for my family.

My eldest daughter who is starting to become more aware and conscious of self and others, asked me to put on my hat. I explained that I didn't have it with me. She looked very worried. She did not look comfortable. She pointed out that others may come in and she did not want me to be seen like that.

I explained to her that I didn't mind if others did see my like this and if I was comfortable with this, so should she be.

To be honest, I was not overly comfortable with idea of others coming in and seeing my head "naked" but I pretended I was.  I didn't want her to worry about me. I believe her concern came form a place of protection. She really didn't want others to see me like this.

Was she embarrassed or just trying to protect me?

In the end, I figured it really didn't matter, as the reality is, how can she be comfortable with this if I am not?

As it turned out, no one came into the pool, so all was good.

I guess this stage was new for us all.