Unprocessed thinking

Last night, in the pub chatting to some good friends, it rolled off my tongue. It was as if I had been saying it for weeks or months. It came out like I had fully processed the thought and was absolutely sure of its accuracy. It came out as a fact, something that I knew to be true, yet really I don't remember ever actually thinking this thought. At all.

So what was this statement that I made so clearly (with a beautifully chilled Hefeweizen in my hand?)

I said, "I love being 40. It's the best age ever and most likely the best decade. It's because I know myself. I know what I am good at and what I am not. I also know firmly what I want and what I don't. This means I have time to do everything that I chose to."

That was it. The truth as it appeared to me in that moment. It was quite honestly unprocessed, unanalysed and unarticulated til that moment. So is this what I really believe????

Well quite possibly yes.

That said I have loved every age. I had great teenage years at school. I loved my 6th form. Early twenties and University days were absolutely fantastic, I mean really amazing. My first jobs were brilliant, as was having money in my late twenties (not forgetting those luncheon vouchers!) to go fine dining and drinking in Brussels. Then came the thirties with the phase of motherhood and career growth. A real whirlwind but rich and intense. Late thirties brought adrenalin and new hobbies and lust for life and then I enter my forties. Maybe it's just that I appreciated each phase for what it was. Or maybe life just keeps getting better. Yes in all these phases there have been hard times and sadness, but none of this has dominated a decade or a phase.

So as I said this, I knew it was true. What I love about this phase is that it's an honest phase. It's about doing what's right for my ecosystem and not for anyone else. It's about being a good employee but not at the cost of what matters. It's about choosing consciously and deliberately for my community and it's about being bold when needed, being bald and enjoying it and it's about seeing the real beauty around. Seeing it everywhere, seeing all the time and finding it in everyone.
So yes this decade rocks!

Even if I can't go out partying two days in a row anymore, and possibly even prefer a sofa and a blanket to a night out! 

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