I have had an intense week to say the least. Lots of tough discusssions with signifcant people implications. So as the week closed, I wanted to go for a treat.
I wanted to have some "me" time and do something nice.
My first thought was to think about how nice it would be, to go to the hairdressers. Something as simple as that. Something I imagine you all take for granted.
I fancied just walk to the nearest salon and popping in to have a trim and a blow dry. Maybe a magazine and a coffee while the highlights were being put in. A chat about celebrities or the local community center. And best of all, walk out looking and feeling like a million dollars.
It's true, such events can really trigger a momentary feeling of beauty and lightness.
But today, I couldn't realise that simple wish. My hair appointments are planful and need a lot of effort. There is no lightness about them and no spontaneity. They dont make me feel a million dollars, they just remind me that I am bald.
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So after a bit of thinking, I decided that it was not to be, so, I booked a pedicure instead!!!
At least I have toes!!!
What I love about your blog and your writing is that it leaves us with a sense of your reality.
ReplyDeleteI love the longing that you create for us in order for us to understand.
I wished today that you had hair even just for a weekend so you could feel that lighness again.
this post really gave me a sense of the grieveing and made me understand so much more.
I admire your honestly and sharing so very much
(PS I decided that since we are on a time difference now to break my own rules and read your blog from work from now on!!!. Feel naughty is good:))
Lauren
That last sentence made me smile! And it might make you feel a little better if I say, that although I can go to the hairdressers, I can't go for a pedicure as I wouldn't ask any beautician to deal with my psoriasis-covered feet!!! So ... what colour did you go for on your toe nails?!
ReplyDeleteDear FF - crikey, never realised your feet reality. We really take our good stuff for granted! I went for bright pink and very happy. Look forward to reading a blog about your feet.
ReplyDeleteDear Lauren, get back to work. Tee hee, like I care ! BBB x
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