It's bizarre.
This person was in my life for a number of small years. She was someone, for whom I had an inordinate amount of respect. Her knowledge, articulation and assertiveness were impressive. Maybe she espoused the things I desire. Maybe therein lay the attraction. Yet there was no warmth there. No sign of light for a friendship. Maybe a twinke in the dust now and again, but the shutters were closed on this one. In fact, there was even a phase where there was pretty much dislike, even disdain on both sides.
Yet we didn't give up. Maybe we both saw the sparkle but didn't know how to access it. We had it out. We both understood something differently as a result. We both needed this conversation.
Months later, we both found the capacity and the willingness to explore the possibilities and weeks later even jumped in, raw and vulnerable.
The product is now unfolding. I feel a richness evolving. I feel distance and space could be oxygen to this relationship. I have no expectations but I have a lot of hope.
I think we have both realized how important it is to have friends in the workplace. Friends to support each other, friends to tell you the truth and importantly, friends to have your back. I think we both see the value in this. And I for sure am looking forward to this friendship.
Whenever and however it unravels.
curious?? I have some guesses.
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